Lately i feel like im in a game of tug of war with my weight. Somedays im winning and other days i lose.im 21 years old and my mother still knows how to push my buttons, yesterday she asked me how many surgeries i had done.Well i didnt get it at first because i was thinking hello your my mother and you know i havent had any. Then i caught what she was looking at...my chest. I have a large natural chest and i was wearing a tube top what she was looking at was my strech marks. Well ill tell you i wanted to slap that smirk off her face,:frypan: it wasnt funny.but i laughed it off. i had 3 shots to make it all better.
The night before that i was making a cake for my dads birthday and my grandpa told me, thats why your fat your always eating. of course he didnt know i was making it for his son but because im making it (the fat granddaughter) then of course im making it just for me.
the thing is this is the thinnest ive been in a long time. i told my mom how much i weigh now 245 and she just gave me a look that said o my god.. but when i told her how much i weighed before 294 i wished i could take it back. i mean im taking to a lady who is 170.she then gave me a speach about how i should really start exercising. I wanted to scream hello do the math i lost 49 pounds i am trying...
thanks for letting me vent i know they wont ever change my mother and grandpa have always been this way. i really do need to learn not to let it get to me but sometimes im human and it hurts.
That`s shocking, for your closest family to be so abusive towards you! Reading something like that always makes me angry. You are addressing your weight, and you have come a long way already. Plus, it`s not their body anyway, it`s yours!
What do you usually respond when they come out with somethign like that? Do you really laugh? If they chose to do so, they may perceive this as permission to be cruel?
I laughed... I was so shocked and upset at what she said i really didnt know what to do. i mean i am not a emotional person meaning i wont cry and say you hurt my feelings what i will do is bottle it up and deal with it when im by myself. i know its not good for a person to do this but growing up it was how i survived.
My mother and I have a rocky relationship. I am the middle child also the biggest. I hide my pain with humor. I often joke that im gonna need a shrink when i get older because of all my issues with my mother. People say i remind them of her and that is what scares me ....
I laughed... I was so shocked and upset at what she said i really didnt know what to do. i mean i am not a emotional person meaning i wont cry and say you hurt my feelings what i will do is bottle it up and deal with it when im by myself. i know its not good for a person to do this but growing up it was how i survived.
My mother and I have a rocky relationship. I am the middle child also the biggest. I hide my pain with humor. I often joke that im gonna need a shrink when i get older because of all my issues with my mother. People say i remind them of her and that is what scares me ....