Does anyone else struggle with a fear of being more vulnerable if you lose weight?(7)
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I don't fear attention from men because I have always gotten it. I got more when I was in the low to mid 200s, but I am used to it and I know how to handle it. I didn't get fat to hide - I was never NOT fat. So for me, I am shedding the vulnerabilities as I lose weight.
Thank you for sharing such a personal perspective. It is tremendously difficult to accept who you are when others don't. Nobody torments people who are ill, and we the overweight seem to be the exception to that rule. I see my eating disorder as a real illness and it hurts when others dispute my right to exist happily.
I just had to write back to this. I think most peoples answers have been a physical fear, but it is an emotional fear. My weight was the thing that covered me, that kept me from being exposed to others. When people looked at me it was not my face or my brains it was my weight ( or so i thought )and i liked it that way. I know it may sound strange to others but my weight was my comfort blanket...the thing that I could focus on, the thing I could blame, the thing that was my excuse. I am now coming into this weight loss journey a strong confident women who can stand on her own against others without the "friend" ive had my whole life. I am ready to let go. I hope this helps you, just writing it has helped me.